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Thursday, July 17, 2008

短信。。。

在28.09.2007的那一天,你发了个短信给我。内容写着

“老婆,今天是我们的结婚第五周年庆了,我想告诉你。我爱你。我会永远永远爱护你的。我。。。愿意为你,愿意为你,愿意为你。。。变成ultraman保护我,不让恐龙进入我们的世界。好让我们安安乐乐的永欲爱河。”

对于你给于我的爱,我都感觉到。谢谢你那么爱我。

但,你保护了我吗?我知道你已很努力了 。。。可是你千想万想的而忽略“恐龙”已逐渐破坏你建立给我的安宁世界。那“恐龙”不是别人,而是你最亲的家人。我知道你为难,所谓手掌是肉,手背也是肉,你想两全其美,可惜却做不了。我的努力你或许看不见。我也想和你家人和乐融融。。。但很可惜的在我慢慢逐渐增加对你家人的好感时,就会有人搞破坏,好感不见增加反而减少。

我真的不想让你为难,但我真的不知道该怎么面对他们。虚假的面具我戴不上去。。。违背自己良心的事我也做不到。我只能尽量做回我自己,在能忍的情况下就尽我所能去忍耐。这就是我不过问你家人的点点滴滴的原因。或许我这样做,你会认为我对你家人很冷酷、不关心。。。可是你不知道的是,在我不知道的情况下,我才能继续维持我对他们的观感,知道得越多反而给我的是反感而已。在这同时,我也很少和你聊我家人。。。同理心。

我也不知道你到底知不知你们有位亲戚曾这样对我说 :“你岳父岳母说喔。。。要是早知道你们不会和他们同住,他们就不会花钱去装修加大房子。”听到的当时,我心受伤了,但我还是忍了下来。我在还没结婚时就曾和你说了我要搬出去住的,不是吗?等到我发现你父母自己擅自装修加大房子时,我就知道你没有和你父母说明我的意愿。就算我再不愿意,我也只能委曲求全。。。和他们同住3年多了。我只想要自己的空间,难道也是错吗?

在我们刚搬进我们自己的家时。。。你都差不多每个晚上都不在家。那时的我的确很受伤、难过,也很委屈。。。但我却没有向你发表些什么,也不曾向你发脾气,只是偶尔不经意的埋怨一下下,也只是偶尔半夜等你回到家后埋怨你让我担心而已。我到底那里让你不满意了 。。。难道我不能对你有多少要求吗?我已不知道该怎么做了 。。。

希望我们俩的感情不会变成两人的负担,或变成责任而已 。

永远想让你在乎的我。

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

忘了 - 高慧君

歌名:忘了
附註:
語言:國語, 曲長:5m5s
作曲:彭莒欣, 編曲:Jamie Wilson
監製:彭莒欣, 填詞:彭莒欣

把你忘記該不該 也許重新找個人來愛
曾經堅持永遠的期待 不再 已丟掉的時間 誰會管

也許活著是一種悲哀 有些事情就是看不開
世上是否真的有好聚好散 只是找個藉口面對未來

是否忘了愛過 忘了孤單 再忘了想 再忘了忘
一直活在現在 才能避免自己再度受傷害
忘了自由 忘了依賴 再忘了想 再忘了忘
心專注你之外 才能阻止你在我心中放遺憾

是誰將愛分開 一半是我 一半由你安排
心在中間祈盼 只能空等待 等你靠過來

Ever Ever After By Carrie Underwood

Ever, Ever After
Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we want to believe they still do
In our secretest heart it's our favourite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too
Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away
Starting your fashion, wear your heart on your sleeve
Sometimes you reach what's realest by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you
Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you it's not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after
No wonder your heart feels it's flying
Your head feels it's spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through
To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe it's just one wish away
Your ever ever after
Ever ever ever after (I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss)
Oh, for ever ever after

Amazing Grace by Darlene Zschech

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound.
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found.
Was blind but now I see.

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear.
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed!

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis grace has brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

How Amazing ... How Wonderful you are ...

When We been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We no less days to sing God's praise
Than when We first begun.

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound.
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found. Was blind but now I see.